Okay. Those of you who went to school with me... do you remember Gabe Lopez? Well last night I had a dream that I was pregnant with his child. And at first I was thrilled and planning to have it, and I told everybody, but then I changed my mind and decided to have an abortion, but when I got to the abortion clinic I wasn't wearing the right kind of underwear so they sent me home.

This is weird for many reasons, not least the fact that I completely forgot Gabe Lopez existed until this dream, so how in the world did he surface in my subconscious and impregnate me? I hate having fevers, my dreams are weird enough when I am healthy, but this is just uncool. I don't want to be pregnant, even dream-pregnant! Ew.

I took Christmas, and I WHOOPED ITS ASS. I got all my shopping done for everybody in one day. HUGE shout-out to my amazing Bobsy, who handed me his credit card and said "go buy stuff." How awesome is he? Anyway I got very small, very cheap presents but they are cool, and I AM DONE. The only person I splurged on was my mom. Because, I don't really have any money, but my ma deserves the best. I also have a little bit of spending money for Disneyland so that I'm not mooching off everyone. I mean, I'm already mooching for my ticket, you know? So I can afford my own foodstuffs, probably. Neat. I am excited. I wanna go now!

I am proud of myself for getting all my crap done today. Now I am fucking exhausted and irritated because, people suck, and stores suck, and I had to go *gulp* THE MALL. But I am done, goshdangit. Even my coworkers got their lame cheap crap :) I love going to Target and buying like 10 body butters for 10 bucks and ta-da! Gifts for all female coworkers and acquaintances. I rock.

Headache... have a headache...

This game is awesome. I have gotten to a level 46, and there are a total of 50 levels. It's tough but so fun, and addictive too. Go play!!!

I just want my throat to stop hurting. I want to cuddle in bed with my bobsy and my toby and make fun of Tin Man on tv. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I WANT MY MOMMY. Life sucks. IT SUCKS!!!!

i think that possibly, maybe i'm falling for you
yes there's a chance that i've fallen quite hard over you
i've seen the paths that your eyes wander down
i want to come too
i think that possibly, maybe i'm falling for you
no one understands me quite like you do
through all of the shadowy corners of me
i never knew just what it was
about this old coffee shop i love so much
all of the while i never knew
i never knew just what it was
about this old coffee shop i love so much
all of the while i never knew
i think that possibly, maybe i'm falling for you
yes there's a chance that i've fallen quite hard over you
i've seen the waters that make your eyes shine
now i'm shining too
because, oh because, i've fallen quite hard over you
if i didn't know you, i'd rather not know
if i couldn't have you, i'd rather be alone
i never knew just what it was
about this old coffee shop i love so much
all of the while i never knew
i never knew just what it was
about this old coffee shop i love so much
all of the while i never knew
all of the while, all of the while... it was you

They are making a movie of "Angus, Thongs and Full-Frontal Snogging."

^^ That is the title of the new Seether CD, and it's REALLY good. True, it isn't much different that their earlier stuff. But I still really really like it.

You Are Subversion!
You are systematic and secretive. Sometimes even very calculating. Most everyone trusts you but they have no idea what really goes on in your head. You are capable of being nice or mean, whatever a situation calls for. You look out for #1.
What Naughty My Little Pony Are You?

2 Xanax.
6 Band-aids.
Wrist injury.
Feeling better without murdering my boss: Priceless.

Man... even though I am decidedly over him and quite glad things never happened between us... it still upsets me to see him with someone else. Sad. I wonder if that ever goes away? Maybe not for me. Since I seem to be the queen of never ever getting over people ever. God. I suck.

I don't like my birthday. It always makes me realize how little I like my life, how few people give a crap, and how much I miss him. Bad news all around. I always get depressed. I want Barry back.

School sucks. It's the first damn weekend and I have 2 papers to write. Blech. I worked yesterday too. I basically attacked the supply cabinet and organized it. I kind of went nuts. Everything is organized by size, color, or alphabetized... and everything is labeled. I channeled some frustration into it.

I need to go to the doctor cause I am having these weird dizzy spells... I think I will be giving the Student Health Center a shot... because it's free.

I also need to get an eye exam because it's entirely possible that I'm gonna kill myself one of these days driving at night... I basically can't see shit at night anymore... the other day I stopped at a green light, because the NEXT light was red, and I couldn't tell how far away it was, and though it was the one right in front of me. Not good.

Um... yeah that was about that. Not much going on. Work, school. Illness. Hanging out with my puppy. It's so funny, Bobby and I feel like parents, when he's working third shift I am sleeping over there so Toby is not alone. I brought in pictures to work and everything. It's definitely like having a kid, but way more fun. Toby is also way cuter than a kid.

Lizz, today I saw a bracelet in wal-mart and my first thought was "That is so ugly! I HAVE TO OWN IT." You have infected me with your love for ugly jewelry!

Things I need to accomplish this week:

Get a haircut... and get a real job! Hahaha, I remember that song. Okay, anyway. Get a haircut.

Buy books. Ew. This is gonna suck, big-time.

Buy parking permit.
Pay for grad check.
Have Christie look @ grad check form to make sure I got everything.
Turn in grad check.

Pick up Rx.

Order stuff from Sephora. OMG yay.

Go buy crap for school. And crap for life in general. Buy crap.

Pay USCB bill.

Email Shirley about my schedule changes.

*I'll be coming home this weekend, Friday afternoon through Sunday morning, if anybody wants to do anything. I at least need to swing by Rachel's to pick up her child psych book. But I would like to get dinner or something. Or just hang out at somebody's house. I WANT PIZZA FACTORY SO BAD. OH MY GOD.

1. MS in Counseling Psychology -- MFT
2. Master of Social Work -- LCSW
3. MA in Psych
4. MPA -- Public Policy Administration -- Concentration on Nonprofit Management
5. MA in Sociology
6. MS in Education Counseling and Personnel Services

And the sad last-ditch I'm-a-huge-loser option is of course the online MSA in Organizational Administration. (blech)

Or I could get my MA in English! *laughs hysterically* Or I could slit my fucking throat.